My Art is my Journey | My Journey is my Art
Artist. Writer. Two career choices I never considered. And yet, here I am.
I began painting in 2003, in the Russian impressionist tradition. I frequently painted landscapes and cows, a subject that was near and dear to my heart and soul, after spending so much time on my grandparents’ farm as a child, and then later raising them myself. But the pull to follow my intuition finally led me to painting abstracts, and then abstracted figures, finally culminating in my current artistic style.
I love layering paintings, frequently taking older paintings and adding to them, conversing with the paint and the canvas after meditation time, allowing that which is asking to come through to do so. They unfold and develop intuitively. Sometimes I start with an intention, or sometimes I just allow and know that this process works best for me. I paint a layer, and then glaze – layer after layer – allowing the layers to build upon themselves creating the depth and richness in the paintings that I love. I find that even the “mistakes” frequently become an intrinsic part of the painting, and I instinctively know that this is much as our lives are.
I began writing in 2010, as a way to work through my thought processes as I stumbled my way through a divorce, becoming a seeker of unanswered questions, and actual acceptance that I was now a professional artist. Painting and writing became inseparable after some seriously life changing shamanic journeying where I received clear messages that one cannot exist without the other in my world. My paintings and my words together contain messages for those who need them – to move them forward, to help them to heal, and to give them solace.
This is my own personal journey. And this is my offering to the world.
Our world is suffering like never before. And yet, we are more divided than ever.
With our planet in turmoil (which, by the way, is part of a much bigger plan), time is of the utmost importance. I’ve seen for some time, a golden web around the Earth. There are strong points that carry a lot of the light – Taos, Sedona, Ashland, Eureka Springs, Fayetteville, Austin, Asheville, Berlin, and so many more. With each connection that we make, for each person that we show compassion towards, we make the cocoon more brilliant, and more protective for our Mother.
Being true to ourselves is more important than ever. We all smile. We all feel joy and pain. Our laughter sounds the same. No matter our age, race, religion, no matter what language we speak. We are one and the same. Our learning experiences are layered with time, creating the fine masterpieces that we are today. Whatever your lesson or challenge is, trust me, there are others out there with the same one.
I am reminded of a time in France, riding on the Metro – I remember looking at people, watching their faces, feeling their energy, knowing I had more in common with them because of our likenesses than our differences. We are all cut from the same universal cloth.
We all know when Spirit is speaking through someone because they speak with passion. Listen to a composer tell you about what he is working on. A chef, when he explains his menu. An artist, who feels her work so deeply, that she knows the message that is coming through is meant for someone special.
I am here to be me. And yet, I am here to make a difference.
I’m willing to be transparent. To share my story so that others don’t feel alone.
I have messages that are dying to come through me. Coming from an extremely traditional background, it has been difficult for me to fully step into being a visionary – an empathic, intuitive artist who paints the unseen. To know that there are those who will always see me as crazy – and to do it anyway.
I am very much a seeker of greater truths, and committed to uncovering the hidden truths that surround us all. Working with my guides and my own intuition, it is my job to share what I see. My story of believing in myself, and the courage that it has taken to follow my intuition and share what I know, I hope will give others permission to do the same.