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Am I CRAZY???

Or just nucking futz? Or a bit of both? I am predicting that 1/3 of you will say TOTALLY crazy…1/3 of you will say “nope”, and the last third will completely get it, and be totally supportive. Let me give you the scoop, poop….so that you can make your own decision…

You may remember that I tried to go to South Africa for a type of a vision quest. Which, didn’t happen, although, I truly appreciate all of you who helped me try to fund my journey. I decided if I didn’t go, that this was going to be a summer of ceremony, and that I was going to create my own sort of vision quest.

Agnes, Ruby and I took off in mid-June to attend a Sundance Ceremony in New Mexico….incredible prayer time….and very grounding. While I was there, a Navajo elder shared an amazing story with me about why we are here…..something that I knew, but/and, confirmation is always welcomed.

On Wednesday, I leave again for New Mexico, on my way to another ceremony. This time feels different. Mostly because I have been getting the message to visit the sacred site at Chaco Canyon after the ceremony is over. For those of you who have been there, you know that the road pretty much sucks, and so many have advised me to not risk traveling the road in. And yet, GUS and my intuition, continue to INSIST that I go.

Scares the POOP out of me!!! Serious apprehension going on inside right now. I’m either courageous, or crazy. (In all honesty, it’s probably a bit of both!) After all, I am a bit (ok, a LOT) OCD, and I’ve never taken Agnes on a journey that is this much off the grid – No cell service, no water, no electricity….you get the picture!

I have a lot of fear around MOST of this, and, yet, I KNOW that I am supposed to do it, not only for me, but, also for the collective. (Which seems to be coming up a lot for me lately.)

I have questions about my mission. About my value. About why I am here. I know that I am not alone in these thoughts.

I am pretty sure that the one thing that scares me the MOST, is being alone, with no way to connect to others….and, facing my inner demons.

Soooooooo…….You decide….Crazy? Courageous? Or nucking futz? (Or all of the above?)

May We Walk Together As One,

Paula

I finally put my finger on it

Warrior Angel

About why he felt so dang creepy. First of all, I had my date rape experience that has made me hyper aware of anything that feels off. My intuition was on high alert with this dude.

But why? Everyone in his little town seemed to like him. Or did they? A friend told me to watch out for him, which made me even MORE vigilant.

After spending a bit of time with him, I started pulling away. Seriously, Paula, WTF? He was well groomed, had all his teeth, and a car (Taos people, you will totally GET this!), and somewhat spiritual. However, a pretty significant situation arose that showed me that he has not done some major work on himself.

He was pouty. And sullen. And clingy. Not a sign of someone who has done his work.

I could/should have put him out of my mind, but something was niggling at my brain. WHY??

I went to Sundance Ceremony and prayed hard for four days. I was rewarded with hyper-intuition (I’m a Cancer, and we are the most intuitive of the zodiac, but this sort of intuition I had never felt before.) Time and time again, I would think something, and it would be confirmed almost immediately.

All of a sudden, I got a clear picture of this guy being very dark. He talks about love, but, you never really feel like it is real. He is starting to get a lot of followers. He wants to start teaching. And give certificates when you pass his class of authenticity. WTF? AGAIN!!!

ICK.

Super ICK.

We need to rely on our own intuition so that, now more than ever, we do not fall prey to the dark forces that are feeling threatened by the rising of the light. We must be hyper vigilant about people who claim to know OUR truth, because no one knows who we are, better than ourselves.

The darkness is stepping up its game, and so, we need to also. Always be aware of what doesn’t feel authentic (and those that state that they can give you a certificate to be “more than you are”).

People like this are scary. They are scary because they believe what they teach. They are charismatic. They can convince you that they have something that you don’t have.

Trust me when I say, you have everything you need inside of you. Don’t fall prey to these charlatans. Rely, instead, on your own inner knowing.

Please, don’t drink the Koolaid.

May We Walk Together As One.

Paula

Rebirthing

Something big changed just recently. Through an interesting series of GUS (God, Universe, Spirit) events, I met someone who has facilitated some miraculous healing in me that was many, MANY years overdue, (or perfectly timed…)! The reason I knew that this woman was significant, was because everything fell together, even though there were so many… Continue Reading

Chance of a Lifetime

If you had the opportunity, would you take a chance of a lifetime?  In spite of needing to raise finances, and being scared to death (and probably a few more other things)?  Let me set this up for you.  I turned 60 this past summer.  I wanted to do something special to mark this very… Continue Reading

What’s with this shift?

For those of you who follow me, I know that you have noticed a bit (OK – a HUGE) of a shift.  I’ve really never been one to follow the crowd, and it certainly is playing out in my art.  Right now, I am not concerned with selling art…because, quite honestly, I am so in… Continue Reading

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