When one gets quiet and listens – really listens – the most AMAZING gifts come in. I have been one, for the majority of my life to NOT listen. The one who tries to control everything. The one who tells everyone what to get for me for Christmas, etc etc. I’ll never forget the most wonderful Christmas EVER, when my ex-husband picked up on something that I had said that I wanted and – viòla! it was there on Christmas morning. That year I was busy with babies. My brain was mushy with dirty diapers and leaking breasts! It was a lesson for me… one that took me almost 20 more years to realize.
And so….fast forward….to today. I am working with an amazing coach to help me “see” the last few bits of the “old me” that I need to lovingly release and cleanse myself of so that I can move forward and do exactly what it is I am here to do.
She asks us to tell her what we want to work on in our sessions, and very clearly, I heard….”let it be spirit driven”…and so it was. The messages were mind boggling as well as a tad overwhelming as I thought I had completely let go of some of the self-loathing, anger, people pleasing issues that had plagued me the majority of my life.
I push myself very hard, as an artist to “produce” – being very proud of my “numbers”. My traditional upbringing, doesn’t coalesce too terribly well with who an artist truly is. I have not been able to just surrender and allow myself to BE an artist.
And, heading to France made me feel EXTRA guilty because I was taking so much time off – but am I really?
The most amazing conversation unfolded. It was exactly what needed to happen at that very moment. Surrendering to spirit and allowing the messages to come in.
And in she came….the most beautiful hummingbird – she came to the window and hovered…going back and forth until I told my coach what was happening.
We looked up the meaning of a hummingbird.
“If the hummingbird shows up in your life as a spirit animal, it may remind you to enjoy life’s simple pleasures and take time to enjoy yourself. The hummingbird’s wisdom carries an invitation to take part in and draw to you life’s sweetness, like you would drink the nectar of your own flower.”
Everything we talked about….confirmed by spirit.
Notice what you notice….the messages are there….they may come through from others, and they may come from animals….but they are there.