Once again, I seem to have gone missing.
As many of you are aware of, I have moved (which is a story all by itself, but we all have moving horror stories now, don’t we??!), I had to make an unplanned trip to Taos to reclaim Esperanza (my home there), and have met an incredible person who is challenging me….in a good way. He is asking me to be seen.
No more hiding in my shell with this beautiful soul. Which, for me is such a learned response and habit, that it is scary to be asked to step out into the light.
We were talking the other night, and some of the things he said to me made me run and hide…which I did…for about an hour. And, I realized that if I wanted the outcome to be different, that I had to change my behavior.
Big deep breath.
I started this painting….to help me work through what I was thinking and feeling…
And the words came to help me along…
I grow and change in my artwork… Because my life grows and changes.
Who I am changes.
What I believe in changes.
It may turn out to be a piece of shit…or it may turn out to be a masterpiece…
But I won’t know until I try.
Will I? ?
Is that I’m stretching…
pushing my limits…
going outside of my comfort zone.
Whether or not it ends up a masterpiece…
Or total crap is irrelevant.
What a lot of people don’t know about artists…is that we all…ok…maybe an exaggeration…desire to explore, and push our limits.
To share this process w you all, is beyond scary for me.
Especially something new.
Something outside of my current abilities.
Lots in my life has changed lately.
Home in Taos needed love.
Representation in the UK.
Incredible friends coming, and some exiting.
Tons of lessons…
And I felt like it was or is time to push myself further than I am comfortable with…if there are so many changes…why not extend them into all areas of my life?
It’s just paint…and it’s just canvas…and experimentation…. Just like my life is right now.
Life is change..it’s the only constant.
Might as well roll with the punches.
And make incredible art….