Occasionally I paint what I see happening in the future. Or what I want to see.
I have lived in the country for a large portion of my life, after feeling at one with the land while spending countless, fairy tale, summers at my grandparents farm. I would play for hours in the magical forest amongst the fairies and leprechauns. I was always up at the crack of dawn – conflicted between going out to the strawberry patch with my Grammie or out to feed cows with Grandad. It was my “somewhere over the rainbow”.
An opportunity to fulfill one of my lifelong dreams to have my own little farm on a wee patch of land, with an orchard, garden, bees, views to die for, a huge workshop (think big ass studio!) and huge oak trees has presented itself to me. (maybe chickens, pigs, goats and a cow also…why limit oneself? Oooo and maybe a donkey…or not…or a horse…nah…not a horse….I don’t think…Or maybe.) A lot of minor details (like the sale of my house, theirs not receiving another offer etc etc) have to come together.
It’s already my home. I feel it. I know it somehow.
It has a Koi pond right outside of one of the doors. Asparagus and strawberry patches. Garlic and onions already growing. Spinach that comes up every year.
Did I mention that it has a HUGE workshop…. Did I?! OMG…. Seriously!!!
And so I started painting, purposely, with a somewhat planned finish in mind. What I didn’t realize, because I allow the painting to talk to me during the process, that it would become much more reflective. It was definitely about surveying her domain…but it was so much deeper than that. I realized why this piece of land means so much to me. I shared why above. It takes me back to that time of comfort and peace. Where there were no decisions to make.
But, it so much deeper. Surveying her domain, is not about just looking at the land that is so sacred…it’s also about surveying my life. My past, my present and my future. Almost like watching my life flash before my eyes. All of it. Why things happened when they did. Why the people came into my life that did. And all of the connectedness that every single moment leading up to this space and time have been perfectly orchestrated to lead to THIS perfect moment in time.
I may get the farm…and I may not….but, right now, at this very moment…I feel it and I know it….and that, in and of itself…is perfection.
Let the games begin!
PS….I could use any positive energy sent in addition to mine to “make” this happen.