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It’s Been a Rough FREAKIN’ Year…(part deux)

(If you haven’t read “It’s Been a Rough FREAKIN’ Year” part one , and you want to – click here)….

BUT, first, my Guides have been adamant about having me share something about using the phrase “cream of the crop”.

EVERYONE here plays a role.  Not one of us can make a move without affecting another.  It’s all a part of the brilliant tapestry that we are weaving.  We are connected in so many ways this lifetime – There are the soul contracts, karma from past lifetimes, karma from THIS lifetime, physical connection, etc etc etc.  You never know when, where, why or how (in some cases) your actions or words will transform someone’s life.

So, BE mindful.  BE compassionate.  BE joy.  BE forgiving.  BE love.  Just BE!!!!

Onto more vulnerable stuff….I found out that I have Lyme Disease, which is kind of a relief for me, because I have been exhausted, stressed, moody, arthritic, and having heart issues…which I was blaming on my age, and some what of a non-healthy lifestyle (I really am not much of a green leafy person – preferring bread – etc etc).  I am choosing (consciously) to work with an alternative health care professional, and, I discovered The Medical Medium, who has really changed the way I look at, well, everything that has to do with my lifestyle.

I’ve started juicing and eating healthier.

But, I have to admit, I’ve been beating myself up….a LOT!!!   What did I do to cause this?  And, why me?  So, before you think I am in victim mode, which I will admit, I started going down that old familiar rabbit hole pattern….I’m not.  I’m using this as a way to take control of my life…to change my lifestyle.  Although, I have to confess that there are days lately, that I see myself as a failure…like I did something wrong, and am being punished for it.

I don’t want to be a crotchity, unhealthy Mimi to my Littles – I want to be that grandparent that can keep up with them…that is fun…that is happy AND healthy.  I want to set an example for both my children and my grands…I guess I really never thought about it much before, I kinda thought that my way of living was good….until I started juicing, cutting out gluten, and being more mindful.  (I can definitely tell when I eat something “bad”!)

I’ve always been a “doer”.  I’m a crappy “be-er”.  This has made me aware that the “doing” has to stop.  That part of the resetting of my body, also includes my mind, AND my spirit.   I know that I preach mind, body, spirit….But, I’m truly understanding the importance now.

The brain fog is real.  The exhaustion is real.  The depression is real.  The cause of the actual dis-ease is not truly known, but, I do know that something needs to change.

Sorry about the down and dirty blog, but, not all days are good…  I think that one of the things when choosing a spiritual path that gets beaten into our heads is that we create our own reality…and when things are less than perfect…we get down on ourselves and see ourselves as failures…BUT WE ARE FREAKIN HUMAN PEOPLE…and along with choosing to be human comes emotions…

I’m not wallering…I’m just having a less than perfect day.

Much love,


Trust YOUR intuition (and while you’re at it stop listening to your DAMN ego!)

I have two very vulnerable stories about not trusting MY intuition, (instead accepting someone else’s!), and listening to my ego…

A very large portion of artists’ DREAM of being in galleries.

I’ve been no exception.

Which has led me to lesson learning.


Three years ago I was contacted by a gallery in England.  I HAD THE CHANCE OF BEING AN INTERNATIONAL ARTIST!  She was just starting out – which made me a tad bit hesitant – but – AN INTERNATIONAL ARTIST!  I didn’t ask enough questions.  I wanted to be AN INTERNATIONAL ARTIST!  I shipped them…over $10,000 worth of art. Two years later, and only one very highly discounted sale, I contacted her to ask that she ship the remaining paintings back.  Long story, but suffice it to say, the paintings are still there, and she refuses to communicate with me.



I was introduced to a local gallery by a friend whom I considered a good judge of character.  I got a horrid case of the heebie jeebies when I spoke to the owner on the phone.  Meeting him, my radar went on high alert.  And, instead of heeding all of the warning bells, I left my artwork there, with the promise of payment the moment a painting sold.

The first painting sold early June.  I expected a check.  I communicated with him two weeks later. The check was promised in two weeks.  Two weeks went by.  No check.  More communication.  With the promise of a check on Monday.  When I asked if I could come over and pick it up – the conversation went silent.

Every cell in my body told me to get my artwork immediately.

And so I did.

Why didn’t I listen to my intuition?

Why did I rely on my friend’s words rather than the hair on the back of my neck standing on end?

These are my words of wisdom for artists around these two “lessons”.

Decide first whether or not you WANT to be in galleries.

There are many ways for an artist to make a living.

Ask questions.


After all, if they are on the up and up, they will be honest and straight forward.  They will encourage you to ask other artists about their experience.

Have a contract with YOUR terms.

If they won’t sign it – RUN.

Right now, I have $9900 worth of art in England, that I will never see again, because I didn’t trust my intuition.

Thank God, I listened to my gut and picked up my art before the situation repeated itself.

I’m learning…slowly…but always going forward.

I may stumble and fall, but the important thing, is that I keep trying.

I should have paid attention to MY knowing.

Any time I do things out of fear (I “needed” money), ego (AN INTERNATIONAL ARTIST!), or don’t listen (EXPENSIVE “mistakes”) – things turn out poorly.

Heed those warning bells.

Ask questions.

Be curious.

Don’t be afraid to ask for what you want.



I have a HUGE confession

Posting some of my latest work scares the S**T out of me. There.  I said it. But, let me tell you why.  First of all, even though I have ventured into non-objective art in the past, and quit because of “my three yo could do this”, and “give me a couple of shots of tequila… Continue Reading

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