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Comforting the Disturbed….

…..and disturbing the comfortable.

It’s not for the faint of heart.  It’s a special calling for a few artists whose soul and higher self begs for them to create art along with messages that are controversial.

And particularly challenging for those artists who are susceptible and worry about what others think, because of their wounding, and life’s lessons.  And, for those who were raised very “traditionally”, it presents a whole other plethora of issues.

All I can present is MY story – but I think that many other artists are in the boat with me.

Making pretty “acceptable” art is fun – and there is always a place for this…But, I KNOW that some of you are being called to bring in messages…and it’s scary.

I started traditionally – cows, sheep, roosters, pigs – fun and delightful, and near and dear to my soul.

And then, IT started.

It began with a message from a very well known artist – “Don’t let galleries pigeon-hole you.  Don’t paint for them.  It will stifle your creativity – the messages you are to bring through.”

Abstraction started – followed by “beings and angels” – and then – the messages became as important as the paintings.

I HAVE to paint these.

It has become even clearer to me after these past three months of intense introspection and lessons.  I know that many of us are going through the eye of the needle right now – with Spirit/God asking us if we are truly committed to the path that we chose.  It is taking HUGE amounts of courage, dedication, and shedding to get to where we are – and I applaud each an every one of you for NOT FOLLOWING THE M(ASSES)!!!

Creatives – all creatives – that are authentic to their paths, are the ones that are bringing in the new consciousness – the change that is needed.  We bring in questions – we bring in light – we bring in joy and love.

One of my latest paintings is a great example of listening to my knowing – being petrified to put it out there – and doing it anyway:

It’s called Faces in the Crowd – and here is the message:



A message about society.

About the way so many walk around like zombies.

Willing to follow the masses.

Not questioning, or thinking for themselves.

Becoming empty, because they fill themselves up with things, and busy themselves with jobs that they don’t care about….

Not finding time to play.

Look at the sky.




Just finding time to BE.

Instead they try to keep up with the Jones’…(no pun intended).

Losing themselves in the Crowd, rather than standing out, because they have been taught that standing out is a “bad” thing.

How will YOU stand out today?

May we walk together as one.

I KNOW that this painting “disturbed the comfortable”, because someone commented : “Me no like”.  Six months ago, I would have deleted my post.  I would have been totally embarrassed to have posted something that someone didn’t like.   Three months ago I would have deleted her comment.  Yesterday, I said, “Good.  It’s meant to disturb!”  And I meant it.
Does it scare the shit out of me to put these messages, these paintings out there???   Hell YES!!!!  Will I continue to do it?  Of course.
It’s time to wake up.  It’s time to be authentic.  It’s time to shine our collective light.  We have all become numb to stuff that we wouldn’t have put up with 10 years ago.  We are numbed and dumbed.
So – here is to all of you who feel the calling and are scared to death and do it anyway.
May we walk together as one.

Receiving the Messages

Receiving the Messages (16 x 20)
Receiving The Messages

It’s been an incredibly enlightening journey to Taos this time.  I’ve been super meditative – stipping 1200 Sq. feet of very stubborn tile can do that.

The one clear message I have received is how important it is to be authentically me. In every aspect in my life.  To look at the lessons that are unique to me.

I know I am to paint my journey.  To be vulnerable in what I write (and paint).  So that others who are also on this spiritual journey, this consciousness awakening don’t feel crazy and/or alone.  Because there are parts of this path that are totally crazy making.

I tried an experiment this last year in October.  As most of you know, I have been known as a cow painter.  It allowed me to visit a part of my life here that is full of fond memories of a simple time spent on my Grandparents farm when I was younger.   Two of my galleries that I love asked me to paint cows so that they could have more inventory from me.  I did.  Against my intuition about what I was supposed to be painting.  And guess what???  Not a single one has sold!  That’s because, my soul was not in that part of my life any longer.  Oh yes, the fond memories are still there, but, I am at a different part of my journey now.

I know that this situation presents a certain dilemma.  Do I paint for others?  Or do I paint what I am being guided to paint?  Same with my writing.  Do I risk being looked at or thought of a crazy lady on some sort of funky, odd, out of the ordinary (and most definitely out of the box!!) misunderstood journey?  Putting myself out there in a way that I never that I would ever do and or risk doing?  Exposing my inner most thoughts at the risk of being totally disowned as a family member or friend?

I’ve been on the fence around this for quite some time.

Yet, I know my answer.

If I assist just ONE person to find their way through just one small part of their journey, and they in turn pay it forward, then I’ve done my “job”.

We are all so interconnected, a golden web…not one of us makes a move without affecting others.

So, I know why I’m here…


I used to ask a very wise man that question all the time at the beginning of my journey.  His answer was always the same.  BE WHO YOU ARE!!!

I would whine – “But, what does that mean?  What I am ‘supposed’ to paint?”  Followed by, “WHY AM I HERE?”

“Be who you are little one.”

So, this is me, being me.

I love what I paint. I know they are strange paintings, and I know they may make one think.

I have to do this.

I have to be me.

Here’s to you being you.

Message received.





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