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I’ve been really afraid…

ahigherpower…..to be who I am for the majority of my life, because I’ve always worried about what other people thought.   Okay, not totally true, because I remember as a small child being happy being outside in my Grandparents magical cedar forest complete with fairies, and leprechauns, and such – I kid you not!!!  I didn’t care what ANYONE thought then!!!

And, I’m finally getting back to that place again.

I’m a visionary artist.  At first, I really tried to “fit in”, (just like I used to want to “fit in” constantly in junior high, high school, college, marriage…yada, yada, yada!), and paint more traditional subjects…..and I did, but, I never really felt like me.

It’s been a journey.

When I first started painting “beings”, I only shared them with people I knew would “get it”.  I slowly started sharing them with others.

Then, the messages started.

And, “I” went on an adventure in Chloe (Fifth-Wheel).

One thing I learned while on my adventure is that I need to be true to me.  Me, and only me.   I’m the only one that I have to “make” happy.   Me.  Everyone else is responsible for their own happiness.  I found that it was very important to me to be completely from my integrity.


I’m not a traditional artist.

At all.

That became VERY clear to me yesterday when I painted the painting above and then the message came through….on this the day of a bit of uncertainty…..

A Higher Power
Yesterday I was called to create…and this one has a strong message. 
Remember, when you go into fear, there is a higher power at work. 
The scales are being balanced. 
It is our job to hold the light.  
To remember that we are surrounded by angels.
To be love. 
To be that voice of reason. 
To be that voice of love. 
May we walk together as one.

I know that there are many of you who are afraid to be who you are also.   We’ve all been taught to “fit in”.  They tell us they want us to be individuals, and yet, when we non-conform, we are either made fun of or reprimanded.   It’s no wonder so many of us struggle with who we are.

I, for one, am finding that it is easier to just be who I am, rather than keep trying to fit into that square hole…

Here is my “I am” statement (the very, very short version)….

I am a visionary intuitive artist.  I receive messages about what to paint, sometimes, and, sometimes the paintings just flow with the messages revealed while the layers mingle.  I believe we were sent here to find our way back to love.  Acceptance.  Compassion.  I am a Pollyanna.  And, a channel, an empath, psychic, clairvoyant, intuitive woman who has been given the gifts of transparency, determination (Thanks, Mom!), and creativeness.  It is up to ME to utilize these gifts in the way that Earth Maker, God, Creator, Spirit, or whatever the heck you believe in….intended.  To do anything less would be a sin.

Now….who are you????

May we walk together as one.



The Blues


They come.  They go.  The blues.  Sometime with varying degrees of intensity.   I know that it’s normal.   I used to RUN away from the blues.  Or waller in it.  All great techniques of avoidance.

I’ve learned more about myself in the past month, because I have chosen consciously to face myself.   My demons.  My little girl that was so damaged, and afraid.  Just like I learned on my Ayahuasca journey – there is no way out, but to walk through the fire.   It didn’t kill me, but it gave me so much insight.  It’s the fighting it that is the scary part.  And wore my ass out.

I’m very committed (or as I have said in the past – I should be committed) to my spiritual path.  My journey.   To learning as much as I possibly can this lifetime, as well as being as authentic to myself as I can.   Without judgement.  Knowing that I am doing the absolute best that I can every moment that I am in.  And forgiving myself for my missteps.

It’s not about just reading one book and adopting everything in that book.   It’s about becoming a seeker for my truth.   What resonates in one, may not resonate in another.   There may be bits and pieces from one, and the whole damn book from another.

It’s a commitment.

Yes, I have strayed….I have believed that it’s not as important as I thought it was.   I thought it made me the odd ball out.  I thought people looked at me like I have a third eye (btw – I do!!!).

And, on this path – the blues show up.   It’s not always fairies, unicorns farting glitter, or all namaste.   Maybe, eventually, I’ll get there, but for right now, I’m going with what is presented to me.

I think it’s important to honor your own path.

If that means, taking a day off to really LOOK at why you have the blues, then by all means do it.   I promise there is some good juicy stuff there.

I’ve been going to therapy – something I can’t really afford – but – my inside voice said – you can’t afford not to.  It’s time Paula Jean.   It’s time to heal that wounded little girl inside, that shame core, that has “protected” you forever.

It’s time to cut yourself some slack and be less judgmental against yourself.

You know, the oddest thing happened when I did that.

“I” became less judgmental against others.

I had compassion for myself.   Real compassion.  And I found it flowed out to others.


Big AHA!!!

I’m an intuitive painter.  I’m a spiritual warrior.  I am a mother and Mimi.  I love having long conversations with people about anything that has to do with this journey.   I don’t apologize for my “different than most” opinions or beliefs – as much as I used to.   If it makes me crazy in some people’s eyes – well then – so be it.

However, the one thing that I know about my path, is that my “coming out” spiritually, allows others to come out also.

I can’t help but be grateful for the past, excited about the future, and present in the NOW…

Much love,


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