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What happens when you state what you want to GUS…

…..Or, be careful what you ask for!!!!!

I’m a manifestor.  Actually, quite good at it.  Sometimes, too good.

I spent many years in “victim mode” and received a lot of “victim” situations.  I was all about “nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I’m gonna go eat worms!”  And, I received a lot of worms.

Once I realized that thoughts create things and/or situations, I got better….not great…but, better, at being aware of my thoughts and statements I made.  (I think I will ALWAYS be on a journey around this!)

Here is a HUGE example of what I am talking about.

This past year has been about finding my authentic voice.  Figuring out who I really am.  One of the things I stated to GUS (and to friends), was that it was time to leave a couple of galleries that did not “fit” any longer.  And, only be in galleries that truly loved my work, and believed in my story.

I waited a BIT too long for GUS….and he decided to give me what I asked for.

The phone call came from one of my galleries that was the most inauthentic to me.

“Do you think it is time that we part ways?”


Yes, of course, but I wasn’t quite ready.

Hells Bells.

Another one closed and didn’t tell any of their artists – we had to find out through social media – obviously this space was not authentic to who I am.

I went from 6 galleries to 1 in a year.

Then I went into panic mode.

What the hell was I going to do???

I was reminded by a dear friend that I had asked for this, and if I could just be patient, (yeah RIGHT!!!!) it would all fall into place.

I went into gratitude mode for the one gallery that believed in me – Artemisia – in Geneva, Il – owned by a very spiritual woman that I adore.  One who understood my path and my vision.



it came.

An email from a man who owned a gallery in Birmingham, AL.  Asking me to be in his gallery.  Art Alley...phenomenal space!!!

We talked.

One of the things that I don’t like about being in galleries in other cities are shipping costs there.  It is a HUGE expense.  He offered to pay for shipping.


He picked out paintings that I had hanging in my house, rather than the ones I had in my studio, which told me that he “got” me.

GUS is always listening.

I truly believe that it is okay to “feel” all of our “feels”.  Our fears, our worries, our anger, and our despair.  If we stuff them down, they fester. Talk about it with your very trusted inner circle – the ones that truly get you and who will tell you like it is (VERY grateful for my TIGHT inner circle!)



State your intention clearly.

GUS is always listening.

And, then be patient and wait for the magic to happen.



Blessings to you all

And, of course….

May We Walk Together As One.





Outside of Her Comfort zone

Outside of Her Comfort Zone
Outside of Her Comfort Zone

Strange painting, I know.  But, I felt driven to create it….and then waited patiently for it’s message.  Not all paintings are meant to be masterpieces.   Some are created to push oneself.  To try new techniques and materials.  To go where one has not gone before.

And, then it came.

The message.

GO OUTSIDE OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE.  And, don’t worry about what others think.  Create for the sheer joy of creating.  Don’t worry about what others think.  Because, this is one of your lessons.  Push your own boundaries without worry or care of criticisms.  AND POST IT!!!

Well.  Hell’s Bells.

Okay….I’ll do it.

I think we all get into “comfort ruts”.   We know what works, what sells, and what others want.  But, is that truly the job of an intuitive, visionary artist?

Oh sure, we all need to pay the bills, and eat, but, is that really our job?

How can we create a new reality, if we are insistent on the status quo?

Is it our “job” as artists to only create happy art?  Saleable art?  Or is it our job to create art to disturb the comfortable, and make them think?   Both?  Neither?

I don’t have that answer.

All I know, is that I felt a HUGE need to create this yesterday.

I think it’s about being seen.  No matter what.   To put myself out there as I never have before.  To push MY boundaries with no fear of the reactions.  It’s a big step for me.   All of my life, I’ve wanted to fit in.  To not “rock the boat”.  Yet, another part of me fights that.

Some of us are here to rock the boat, to question why, to make others think.

Pretty sure, that is one of my “jobs”.

And so…here it goes…

Push the button Paula….hit it…have the courage to put something out there that is different.

I guess this is my way of encouraging others to also step a bit outside of their own comfort zones….to be authentic to who THEY are.

May we walk together as one…




Fear….and releasing

I’ve been struggling.  With who I am and who others think I should be (which just puts my people pleasin’ tendencies into hyperdrive!!!)  Not a winning combo in my world. Perhaps I should go into more details…It’s my art.  Which, I guess in a way, is who I am. I have really been feeling the… Continue Reading

Thoughts about “being” authentic

I wrote my last blog on Dec. 23rd…2013 (not 2012…although it feels like years since I have written ANYTHING!).  I shared with all of you about my “coming out spiritually”, and how scary it was…or is for me.  BUT, (and it’s a big one), since then my life has become even MORE magical.  Because I… Continue Reading

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