…..Or, be careful what you ask for!!!!!
I’m a manifestor. Actually, quite good at it. Sometimes, too good.
I spent many years in “victim mode” and received a lot of “victim” situations. I was all about “nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I’m gonna go eat worms!” And, I received a lot of worms.
Once I realized that thoughts create things and/or situations, I got better….not great…but, better, at being aware of my thoughts and statements I made. (I think I will ALWAYS be on a journey around this!)
Here is a HUGE example of what I am talking about.
This past year has been about finding my authentic voice. Figuring out who I really am. One of the things I stated to GUS (and to friends), was that it was time to leave a couple of galleries that did not “fit” any longer. And, only be in galleries that truly loved my work, and believed in my story.
I waited a BIT too long for GUS….and he decided to give me what I asked for.
The phone call came from one of my galleries that was the most inauthentic to me.
“Do you think it is time that we part ways?”
DAMMIT!
Yes, of course, but I wasn’t quite ready.
Hells Bells.
Another one closed and didn’t tell any of their artists – we had to find out through social media – obviously this space was not authentic to who I am.
I went from 6 galleries to 1 in a year.
Then I went into panic mode.
What the hell was I going to do???
I was reminded by a dear friend that I had asked for this, and if I could just be patient, (yeah RIGHT!!!!) it would all fall into place.
I went into gratitude mode for the one gallery that believed in me – Artemisia – in Geneva, Il – owned by a very spiritual woman that I adore. One who understood my path and my vision.
AND…
then…
it came.
An email from a man who owned a gallery in Birmingham, AL. Asking me to be in his gallery. Art Alley...phenomenal space!!!
We talked.
One of the things that I don’t like about being in galleries in other cities are shipping costs there. It is a HUGE expense. He offered to pay for shipping.
WHOA.
He picked out paintings that I had hanging in my house, rather than the ones I had in my studio, which told me that he “got” me.
GUS is always listening.
I truly believe that it is okay to “feel” all of our “feels”. Our fears, our worries, our anger, and our despair. If we stuff them down, they fester. Talk about it with your very trusted inner circle – the ones that truly get you and who will tell you like it is (VERY grateful for my TIGHT inner circle!)
BUT
DON’T STAY THERE!!!
State your intention clearly.
GUS is always listening.
And, then be patient and wait for the magic to happen.
Because…
GUS IS ALWAYS LISTENING!!!!
Blessings to you all
And, of course….
May We Walk Together As One.
Paula
