I have a HUGE confession

                    Another World

Posting some of my latest work scares the S**T out of me.

There.  I said it.

But, let me tell you why.  First of all, even though I have ventured into non-objective art in the past, and quit because of “my three yo could do this”, and “give me a couple of shots of tequila and I can do something JUST LIKE THIS!”, comments, it keeps pulling me back in.  It’s like some unseen force keeps imploring me to continue.  So, there is this fear of negative criticism.

Second of all, I’m very aware of the “rule” that artists are ALWAYS supposed to paint the same sort of subject matter in the same style. But, I’ve never been much of a rule follower.  I had a very famous artist tell me one time at the very beginning of my career to never let galleries pigeon-hole me, as it would stifle my creative nature.  I always want to paint with passion and what my soul journey is asking me to paint, as I feel that this is my calling.   I suppose that it may be a big drawback as far as gallery representation, however, I’ve been there and done that, and I find when I paint what my galleries in the past have asked me to paint – they don’t sell.  I’m very fortunate to be represented by two galleries right now that understand artists and their need and desire to have total creative freedom.  Do they want all of my work?  Of course not!!!  They know their collectors and what resonates with them.

As people, we change, and we grow, so why can’t we, as artists, do the same???

Since I have started creating visionary art with messages, I have gained collectors, and lost some.  I know that this is a part of my journey.  Not always comfortable, but essential for my growth.

I am finding that with this non-objective art – it is making me let go of my desire to control.  In both the way I live, and the way I paint.  After all, I find that artists are what they paint.

This quote by Degas sums a lot up for me:


“If you are an artist, you must never underestimate the role you play in society. Although you may struggle to make ends meet, and although your work may seem unappreciated or undervalued, you MUST continue bringing beauty into the world, for without the eyes of the artist, what do we see, but dust? Your role in life is to make others see what only you can see, and in doing so, point others in the right direction. Never get discouraged. In your humility, you are powerful beyond measure.

There is something so beautiful to me when I see an artist go outside of their comfort zone and truly “create” from their soul rather than creating for others.  To create for the sake of creating….to bring in those messages that are dying to come through the artist meant for someone to receive.

I know that this is not a path for all artists….but it is mine.  Unapologetically mine.  I’m somewhat of a freer spirit than others…and not as much as some.

I am an artist.

I am a writer,

I am a visionary.

I am ME.

May We Walk Together As One.



Deeply Personal AHA

…That I feel drawn to share….It’s pretty vulnerable….but, a fairly large breakthrough.

A friend of mine (A) was sharing a story about a mutual friend (B) who is dating a multitude of women right now….the friend’s comment was basically “More power to him!”.

I was triggered.  (And probably not in the way that you are thinking)

And rather than get defensive or reactive – I asked questions – because I KNEW there had to be something deep in this…FOR ME….and that it might not be fun.

Even though A sees a pattern in B – B hates women – dates a lot of women – numbs his pain with a LOT of alcohol – gets used and taken advantage of – then when B and the women break up – B whines and complains about the women – RINSE AND REPEAT – A doesn’t feel the need to say anything. (not sure if it is some kind of guy thing – or what.)

Which really made me curious.

REALLY curious.

What about this triggered me so deeply?

But, of course, I started with the obvious.  Why wouldn’t A say anything to B?  A felt I was being judgy, but, I really wanted to get to the bottom of this…and I felt safe asking those questions.  We went back and forth.  Basically ending with A stating he feels no need to say something, and me still up in the air about it.


So – I went to one of my two bestie’s that always helps me process.


There it was.

I did the same thing that B did.


Always dating one person or another – allowing myself to be taken advantage of – monetarily in most cases – culminating in a type of a date rape situation a few years ago.

And why???

Because I didn’t feel worthy.

And so I allowed it.

Anything was better than nothing.


Until…..My friend with the 2 x 4 asked – WHY THE F___ do you do this??

She asked the hard question.

Which I will be forever grateful for.

I did the same thing that B did – BUT – I had someone who cared about me ask the hard question – and changed my life because of it – that’s why it triggered me so deeply.

I realize that if I were given the opportunity – I would probably ask B the same question – in a different way – and knowing that he may or may not hear me – BECAUSE of how grateful I am that 2 x 4 woman cared enough about me to point out that patterning that leaves you banging your head against the wall – constantly wondering because you can’t see your forest for your trees.

We are all so different.

I feel the need to ask the hard questions.

Some don’t.

And it’s all just perfectly orchestrated.

May We Walk Together As One.




Why am I having a sale?

I realize how unconventional having a sale is.   I also know that many will have their opinions about this.  And, quite frankly, I have weighed all of the options. I am a self supporting professional artist….which means, my only income is from the sales of my art.  I absolutely feel very blessed to have been… Continue Reading

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