Indeed Paula Jean….Why? When you were perfectly happy painting and relearning abstracts? Why sculptures? And why now?
It seems since I have started painting at age 45 – every five years I try something different – but, creative. At 50 – it was writing. At 55, I published a book. Now, it seems that I am totally obsessed with creating Angels in Metal….And, guess what? I turn 60 in a matter of days!!!
I absolutely LOVE this medium!!!
I continually ask for signs that this is the direction that I am supposed to go. I KNOW my guides are getting tired of the constant asking – but they continue to answer!!!
Everything has fallen into place so easily…so much so…that there is this old part of me that keeps saying “It’s too good to be true.” And, yet, there is this new part of me that keeps saying thank you to GUS! (God, Universe, Spirit)
I’ve learned that I am a true creative – that I need to be challenged to learn how to be creative in MANY ways, not just in one. This is requiring me to think differently…to rediscover parts of my brain that were on auto pilot. I’ve had to work through feeling guilty (just a tiny bit) about being perceived as a “flaky” sort of artist – but, all I know is that this feels more right than anything else I have ever done in my life….and it makes me over the top happy….so, I’m going to follow this path.
I’m finding that all I want to do is create these Angel Fire Sculptures – in spite of the horrid heat and humidity that we have here right now. I go into this meditative trance almost every time I work on them. Time flies. I forget to eat. I forget to drink (really bad thing in this heat!). Before I know it, it’s noon (I have been starting at 5 or 6 to try and beat the hot weather!)
Every part of the process, I love. Creating the patina. Drawing the angels. Cutting them out. Welding the wings and halos on. Putting them on bases….or not. Each one created with love.
Right now, I have no desire to paint – but, if I have to be honest with myself and you, I haven’t had much desire for the past six months….Abstracts revved my engine up….a lot….but….then, I met Barry in Alabama. He taught me how to cut. How to weld. And, most importantly, how to be happy with whatever I choose to do.
GUS certainly has played a role in all of this…from staying across the road from Barry, to him teaching me, to being accepted to the Vintage Home Temp Market (almost a whole month after the deadline), to finding someone to build a wall for me, help moving, yada, yada, yada…..And, of course, the biggest sign of all – I’ve sold over 30 of these angels since I started less than a month ago!!!
I’m in production mode now – and I’m finding that I enjoy this sort of a task…which surprises the crap outta me!!! Normally, I want to stay footloose and fancy free. Schedules and being with people has made me cringe. Maybe it’s age. Maybe it’s finally grounding my grand fire trine. Or, maybe it’s just time.
Whatever it is – I really can honestly say that I’ve never, ever, ever, ever, EVER been this happy in my life!!!!!
Blessing to you all, and I’m so honored that you are in my life.
May We Walk Together As One.
Holy cow! What a blog! I am so happy for you and so jealous at the same time. Talk about being in sync with the universe! You go girl!
We are angels…torn, tatteted, and imperfect…and yet rare, unique, and so beautiful!!! Follow your highest joy!