Category Archives: Everyday Life

I’ve been AWOL

And here is why….Occasionally life throws us curve balls.  Last week I got the flu.  Full blown, even to the point that I went to the clinic to get checked…Such a rare thing for me.

Then, my son’s lung collapsed and he had to be hospitalized.  He had been trying to get health insurance since May of 2017, and despite numerous phone calls, and following the Health rules…nada, zippo, zilch!

We finally made it home last week Sunday and I woke up Sunday night having a FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK!!!  I couldn’t breathe, listen, speak, or eat.  As a matter of a fact – I honestly thought I was dying!!!   I painted From the Ashes, because I thought it would help….and it did….temporarily.  From the Ashes (24 x 24)

Monday night – rinse and repeat.  Same thing – not as severe – but same symptoms.

I became hyper aware that I couldn’t discuss the specifics of the attack – and set some boundaries that are always difficult for me to set.  And, compassion kicked in.  For those who suffer with these on a regular basis, AND, for myself.

When I could finally see what happened, and could process a bit – The Sassy Pants series was born.

I needed the reminder that “I” had the power!  No one else.  Just me.

I think that artists are unique in that we are able to paint our way through our emotions, and lessons…..not that we are always able to…..but, we can, if we just release and allow.

Getting Her S#!T Together came first – VERY LARGE – and hung in a place in my home that I look at it daily. 









Then came On Her Soapbox to remind me to be grateful. 








After that was Fake it till you Make it – I had never really considered being sassy enough to pretend. And yet, for some reason, I felt the need to paint this colorful being. (She is available for $575 with free shipping in the US – 24 x 36 x .5 – regular price $1300)








I’m not sure why this happened, totally, but, I have my thoughts.  I think one of the main reasons is to learn how to be less judgy and more compassionate.  Another reason is to remind me that there is a power greater than me at work here (Thank you GUS!), and that I really do need to learn how to release and allow.  Still a third reason that I have yet to look at is deeply personal – and something I have been avoiding like the plague, and so GUS (thank you AGAIN!), threw it in my face, so that I have no other option BUT to look at it!!!

This being AWOL has allowed me to see clearer (now that I am on the other side), and has really upped my compassion game.

I’m very fortunate to have had some incredible friends share their experiences, and the breathing techniques that help them when they feel a panic attack coming on.  It doesn’t completely eliminate them, but, it makes them easier to navigate.

May We Walk Together As One.





Who the heck is this GUS dude that I keep talking about?

Powerful (20 x 20)

And why do I think he is so dang important???

There is something that continually comes up for me with the work that I do.  I tend to be a bit edgy, and don’t believe everything I was taught as a child and younger adult.

My life started changing when I started listening to Abraham-Hicks – and realizing that there was much more to life than I “knew” growing up.

I became a major seeker…for MY truth.  For what felt right to me.

One of the things that I discovered was that I didn’t necessarily believe in God as a separate entity.  I found that I believed that we were the higher power.  Our higher consciousness.

What I believe is not so different in what many others believe.  We all refer to it in different ways.  Some call it God.  Some call it the Universe.  And some allude to it as Spirit.

GUS was born, basically because I’m lazy and got tired of writing God Universe Spirit, so I made an acronym.

I feel like we all, for the most part, believe in something that we can’t prove.   It’s called faith.  That with prayer, positive thinking, or repeating positive mantras we can create our own reality.

Even though this is MY belief, I feel it is important to honor and respect every way of thinking.  After all, isn’t that what makes the world so wonderful?  If we were all alike, it would be so damn boring!!!   It’s our uniqueness that makes the world go around.  It’s following our passion, and being authentic to who we are that brings in new ways of thinking.

What I DON’T understand are those that are so closed minded that they want us all to think alike and condemn those who do not believe as they do.

We came here to be uniquely us.  To learn how to love one another and to celebrate differences.  To open up our minds and our hearts.  We are spiritual beings having a human experience.  We agreed to do this.  We are the lucky ones.  The ones who get to feel emotion…touch….and love…

Now is the time for those of us who are on a spiritual path to speak up.  You never know when a seed that you plant will take root.   Have no attachment….no judgement….and know that everything is exactly as it should be.


May We Walk Together As One



Conflict, Boundaries and Guilt

God, I used to hate conflict…boundary was not in my vocabulary….and NO ONE was better at guilting themselves than I was.  I was the Queen. But, something happened this last year on my journey.   I kept attracting the same sort of people.  Victim-ish and vampirish.  AND, as you know, that means there were lessons there,… Continue Reading


I think that, for the most part right now….(and I’m NOT speaking for everyone), we are disconnect-ed.  We have grown up thinking and being taught one way, and yet, our intuition, our heart, is saying another.   Or it is a combination of the two – or a HUGE internal battle. I’m only speaking for myself… Continue Reading

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