- More than I could even share with anyone.
- So much, it causes pain. Physical pain.
This journey, this path…..seems to include a stripping away of the old energies and many of us are being asked to leave that which has always been a part of us. It’s not always easy, and it frequently causes guilt feelings, as well as heartache, but it is a common message that many of us are getting. For instance, why the hell would anyone leave what I left? A comfy, cushy life, with a great husband who was generous, (but, I might add, was never in love with me), and very sweet to me….anything that I wanted or needed….anything! Why?? I’m going through, right now, a phase of asking, wondering and meditating. The same answer keeps coming – “Because, little one, you have things to do, and you must learn how to be one with yourself first, before you can teach the concept of All One”. hmmmmm….. And, I couldn’t, because I would not have been authentic and from integrity.
So it made me think of when a person commits to a life of serving “the Lord” – becoming a priest or a nun. This is what I found about becoming a nun.
- Go through the novitiate, or training period. You’ll spend your time studying, praying and deciding whether you really want to become a nun. You leave your family at this time.
- Take temporary vows of poverty, celibacy and obedience.
- Take your final vows. If you made good on your temporary vows, you’re ready for the religious life.
Wow…..lots of similarities. I spoke with someone this week who also chose to follow a spiritual path – she said she didn’t speak to her family for 5 years. Told me they thought she was crazy….completely nuts….a fruitcake…..should be committed.
But what makes the spiritual path so much different from a religious path? I’m asking…. Are there really any answers? Both paths serve something not “seen” but felt and known. Because one path is a business and the other really isn’t, does it make one more “right” than the other?
And so, I share with you this….on Memorial Day weekend….I miss my family. I miss my nieces and nephews. I miss my brothers and sister. I miss my mom. I miss the farm. Thank goodness Spirit didn’t ask me to give up my children…..
But, I am, at peace. I understand the reasons. I understand the gifts that come.
Michael deserved his freedom – to find someone to love. And he has. She is beautiful and perfect for him. And it is beautiful.