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Who the heck is this GUS dude that I keep talking about?

Powerful (20 x 20)

And why do I think he is so dang important???

There is something that continually comes up for me with the work that I do.  I tend to be a bit edgy, and don’t believe everything I was taught as a child and younger adult.

My life started changing when I started listening to Abraham-Hicks – and realizing that there was much more to life than I “knew” growing up.

I became a major seeker…for MY truth.  For what felt right to me.

One of the things that I discovered was that I didn’t necessarily believe in God as a separate entity.  I found that I believed that we were the higher power.  Our higher consciousness.

What I believe is not so different in what many others believe.  We all refer to it in different ways.  Some call it God.  Some call it the Universe.  And some allude to it as Spirit.

GUS was born, basically because I’m lazy and got tired of writing God Universe Spirit, so I made an acronym.

I feel like we all, for the most part, believe in something that we can’t prove.   It’s called faith.  That with prayer, positive thinking, or repeating positive mantras we can create our own reality.

Even though this is MY belief, I feel it is important to honor and respect every way of thinking.  After all, isn’t that what makes the world so wonderful?  If we were all alike, it would be so damn boring!!!   It’s our uniqueness that makes the world go around.  It’s following our passion, and being authentic to who we are that brings in new ways of thinking.

What I DON’T understand are those that are so closed minded that they want us all to think alike and condemn those who do not believe as they do.

We came here to be uniquely us.  To learn how to love one another and to celebrate differences.  To open up our minds and our hearts.  We are spiritual beings having a human experience.  We agreed to do this.  We are the lucky ones.  The ones who get to feel emotion…touch….and love…

Now is the time for those of us who are on a spiritual path to speak up.  You never know when a seed that you plant will take root.   Have no attachment….no judgement….and know that everything is exactly as it should be.


May We Walk Together As One




Lost Angel

There are times in everyone’s life when they question.  Everything.  There are times of fear and despair.  There are just times when you question.

For me, I know (now) that these are times to go within and be introspective.  Time to paint.  Time to be good to myself.   Time to work things out in my head.  And my heart.  Time to let come through me what is supposed to come through me.

I’m lucky, and blessed because I can paint through these times.   And, if I am gentle with myself, (rather than beating myself up), the answers come.  They come on canvas.

We tend to think that if we are in one of these spots that somehow that makes us flawed.  I look (NOW) at these times as gifts.  I try, (sometimes it is difficult) to look at them as times of growth and change.  I try, (again, difficult) to see these times as time to readjust something in my life that is not authentic.

Why did my stomach go into knots?  Why did I feel such a visceral response?  Why did it make me want to run and hide?  Why did it make me want to go back into victim mode?

This time, I decided to paint through it.  Which I have in the past, but never knowing that, given space and time, that the answers would come.

We all have darkness.  We all have fear.  We all have parts of ourselves that we try to hide from the world.  We think that being spiritual means being “up” all the time.

After doing my shamanic journey’s, I have found, that sometimes, the answers are in the darkness.   We try to run from it, choosing not to face what is there, rather than looking at it as a gift.

It’s scary as hell to face one’s crap…..however, the most beautiful lotus flower grows in the muck.

This painting represents what I felt last night, as I choose to BE in the darkness, relax, and allow.  It may disturb some, and it may make others feel as though they are not alone.

Whatever it makes you feel…..I’m glad, I can make you feel.



There is beauty in the darkness, when there is no fear.

I Choose….LOVE.

It seems so often that we are all asked to be the same.   Oh sure, “they” tell you that being different is great, but, then you go to school and conformity is the name of the game.  At least where I grew up.  Maybe those were restrictions that I put on myself – but I… Continue Reading

Carrying Our Weight

It’s not so much about everyone doing a “good job”, it’s about everyone carrying their own weight by doing what they’re passionate about – passion – is what fuels the fire – the light and love that will ultimately heal the world. It’s about BEing who you are with so much passion that it can’t… Continue Reading


Every year, I try to pick a word that I choose to focus to work on for the year.   This year, was no exception.   TRUST!   Trust my intuition, trust my knowing, just trust. The last blog I wrote about was VERY raw and vulnerable.  (Hope Rising)  I put myself out there like I had never… Continue Reading

What to do…..

…..when you feel like you are being guided to paint something that is almost unexplainable even to you?   How do you translate that to canvas?  And, how do you explain it to those who are asking for an explanation? I started painting “beings” a year or so ago….but, they were unfinished.  Kinda raw and tattered.  … Continue Reading

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