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Is the Light Getting Brighter?

Or is it just me?  I can’t decide, so I am relying on all of you to tell me how YOU feel about it….  I know that being in the pitch black for a few days, that any amount of illumination is so very welcomed and appreciated.   Perhaps, that is one of the main reasons FOR our darkness.

I’m so very fortunate to paint, create and tap into the energies of the collective and pull out messages that we all seem to need right now.   I know that they all aren’t meant for each and every one of you all of the time….and perhaps at times I may ruffle some feathers (actually, I KNOW at times I ruffle feathers – because of some of the behind the scene comments I receive), but, trust me, my feathers have been ruffled a time or two, but, I believe that the most growth we have comes from being ruffled.

Last year and the first couple weeks of this year have been brutal for so many of us.  We have been challenged and asked to shed so much….and so many of us have been doing it kicking and screaming all the way!!!   And yet, there have been major breakthroughs for so many…..after a lot of hand-holding, crying, and “why me?” questions….

As many of you know, don’t know, don’t care, or haven’t heard yet….I went through my first ever panic attack.  Lord Gawd….I had to surrender so much control….and do the only thing I know how to do to recenter and reground….and that was to try and paint.  From the Ashes came….and then these sassy pants women….a bit (OK – a ton) of attitude, strong, powerful and yet, compassionate and authentic.  In other words, unapologetically who they are.   They don’t give a rat’s ass how others tell them it “should” be done…they are going to do it the way that their intuition guides them to do it.

No more trying to be like someone else.  Or how someone tells them they “should” be.

I love how healing my art has been for me through all of this.

I love how most of my friends knew exactly what to do.

I love how I learned so much about me and what makes me tick.

I love how much more compassion I feel for so many more than I did before (trust me, I was judgy about this – thinking it should be a piece of cake to work through a panic attack – dayum Gina – no freaking way!!!)

I LOVE these Sassy Pants!!!

So, is the light getting brighter, or is it just me after being in the icky darkness for a while?

May We Walk Together as One

Blessings y’all





Disconnect ed (12 x 12)
                    Disconnect – ed

I think that, for the most part right now….(and I’m NOT speaking for everyone), we are disconnect-ed.  We have grown up thinking and being taught one way, and yet, our intuition, our heart, is saying another.   Or it is a combination of the two – or a HUGE internal battle.

I’m only speaking for myself right now, but, I think some of you may recognize yourselves in this blog.   I know that I have done some very powerful healing work.  That culminated in a journey to Taos, where I always go to reconnect with my soul….only this time was very different.

It’s been years since I have dug this deep into my core wounding.  My old patterns and thought processes of being.  Ancestral stuff.  Lifetimes of getting away with BEing a certain way…..and getting by with it.   But, I know that I can’t anymore….and it’s challenging.

AND, the Mountain made me LOOK DEEP INSIDE!!!   True to her form and energy, (and her 2 x 4 nature), I had to look at a magnifying mirror…..which showed a lot of my old patterning and wounding…and I realized how much of a gift I was given.

However, I will also say that when the wounds are ancestral, that switching gears becomes a bit rough.   It takes a while to develop new patterns….kinda like riding a bike for the first time….I have training wheels.

I’m learning more how to respond, rather than react.

I’m learning how not to beat myself up – and this one is HUGE – because I have spent a lifetime(s) – doing this.

I’m learning how to have my own rudder – because for most of my life – I’ve relied on others to guide me – in every way shape or form – not having my own opinions (I know…..right????!!!) – and when I did – I seem to manage to see that my opinion was flawed…..

One thing I DO know at the core of my being is that I am supposed to paint and write messages….so that is where I am starting.

At MY beginning.

It’s about being gentle with myself, and others.

May we walk together as one.


I failed.

Yesterday morning was tough on me.  I went into a “Why can’t you seem to do anything right” spot.  I went to a party the night before, and got completely overwhelmed.  LOTS of people in a very small space.  Some I knew well.  Some I knew as an acquaintance.  But, most I didn’t know at… Continue Reading

Comforting the Disturbed….

…..and disturbing the comfortable. It’s not for the faint of heart.  It’s a special calling for a few artists whose soul and higher self begs for them to create art along with messages that are controversial. And particularly challenging for those artists who are susceptible and worry about what others think, because of their wounding,… Continue Reading

Receiving the Messages

It’s been an incredibly enlightening journey to Taos this time.  I’ve been super meditative – stipping 1200 Sq. feet of very stubborn tile can do that. The one clear message I have received is how important it is to be authentically me. In every aspect in my life.  To look at the lessons that are… Continue Reading

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